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Demons, Be Gone!

Halloween is the night of ghosts and goblins. Luckily, many of  these night creatures are cute kids dressed in retail costumes in search of free candy. The worst of tonight is the inevitable candy coma and tummy ache. For some … Continue reading

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Unexpected Beauty

We go through life eyes wide open, yet somehow we miss so many things—important things. So often those missing things are the small breaths of fresh air that keep us moving forward. Some might say the only thing that keeps … Continue reading

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Under Pressure

Pressure to move on. I have two thoughts on this. Thinking back, I think there are external and internal pressures–both very real. I felt like the world was telling me to get over it already. I was still in counseling … Continue reading

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Ties that Bind

When  Randy died, we were living with my parents until our new house was done. It was supposed to be done the week before, but an incorrect countertop measurement delayed it. We moved all of our stuff into the house, … Continue reading

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Unexpected Anniversaries

It’s been 11 years since Randy died. He died August 18, 2001. It was only four days after his 26th birthday and three days before our son’s 5th birthday. August 2002 marked one year, an anniversary I never expected to … Continue reading

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Kids Grieve Too

When Randy died, my kids were 7 years old, almost 5 years old, and 7 months old. I hoped the older two would remember their dad, but I knew there was no chance for my 7 month old to ever … Continue reading

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A Letter

Dear Reader, I hope this letter finds you well. I know things haven’t been easy for you. That’s probably an understatement. I have thought about you often. I have worried and wondered how you are doing. I never wanted you … Continue reading

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Every Long Lost Dream Led Me to Where You Are

When your husband dies, so do all of your dreams.  How do I know, you ask? I say that from experience. The hole left in my heart reminds me. When I was 26 years old, my husband was killed by … Continue reading

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Tell me, How Long Does it Take to Get Over Something Like That?

We have tried to sell Grandpa’s car for months now. We finally set up an appointment for an older couple to come look at it. The couple were nice enough. They did like to talk. After an hour of looking at … Continue reading

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April 12, 2002: Eight Months After My World Quit Turning.

This is a journal entry that I kept online after Randy died. It is as it was when I wrote it. Mistakes, passion, and at times unintelligible blabbering all included. It isn’t pretty. It was real, though. This was a … Continue reading

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