As most know, my grandparents are aging and at 81 there are more bad days than good. We, Mom and I (as caregivers), are at a point where we think we finally have a plan in place and then BOOM, we find ourselves a few steps behind. The past couple of weeks have been particularlly difficult with the end of last week sending me near my breaking point. We finally have regular care for one, but my grandpa has really been struggling. I’m not sure what is going on exactly, but it has been rough.
His words have been like knives and he is just so weak. After one doctor visit and 3 ER visits in 4 days, he was admitted to the hospital and is now back in nursing and rehab, where he can get medicine and therapy. If that wasn’t enough, I also had one with Croup. It was a fairly viscious case, at least for him. Now that the baby is better and Grandpa is being taken care of, once again, we feel we have a plan in place and are up to speed. It has been such a rough couple of weeks, that I welcome the reprieve and hope it continues.
Of course, with my near every waking moment being spent with one or the other grandparents, I haven’t had time to go to the store, or cook, or put my kids to bed, or write anything more than a to do list. And, when I was home, the emotional exhaustion was almost more than I could take. Getting out of bed and moving has been as much of a challenge as I want to take on.
I am itching to write (since I am about a week behind on motivational thoughts and nearly 4 weeks behind the dating post), but it just hasn’t been in the cards for me. I hate to mention the calm because I don’t feel like calling for a storm, but if things continue the way they are I will be writing again by Friday night. I need to spend tomorrow doing some major catch up around the house and with my kids. Friday is writing day (I hope). I would love to catch up on everything. Again, I am hoping not to jinx it.
I wanted to let you all know that I haven’t abandoned anyone. I read your blogs when I can, or at least little pieces before I get sidetracked. This almost never ending barage of sickness, mishaps, and surprises have just kept me away. With any luck at all, things will remain rather level, at least for awhile. I know I have a lot to catch up on: comments and posts. I haven’t run away, please don’t leave me.
From the looks of my stats, you all are coming back and hanging out, even when I can’t. Thanks for that–it means a lot to me. Check back Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I will have no content here. I also am writing a blog about my grandparents. It is more to vent or record events. I expect I will publish it, but haven’t decided exactly when–soon I think.
I would like to put it out there, no matter how difficult, because it has been hard for us to navigate these muddy waters, in spite of my social work degree, my experience from hospital social work, and my EMT knowledge. It’s a whole new fuzzy ballgame when its your own personal experiences. I can’t imagine how people do it when they have no prior knowledge. If I could save one person a headache or a step backwards in this process, it might be a worthwhile adventure.
Hang tight. I will be back by Monday and with enough information to keep you all busy for a while. Thanks!